Lord Revan
07-04-2004, 10:33 PM
Hi all
Mysery, anger, fear, denial, regret, shame you name it i have been through it. And you know what i just don't care. I am not angry anymore, miserable or and of the above mentioned. I have little and i am even less, but how many people can live happily and a fufilled life like i do with what i have.
I am no longer bothered by thing people did wrong to me nor am i bothered by what people think of me. I am the only person who knows me and that is the only person i care to impress.
Opportunities come my way ALWAYS i almost feel like a spoilt brat. I don't like this, icast it aside, nevermind that how would you like this, mmmm i don't know, NO take it away! NOW!. This is how i have handled a\everything from forgiveness to making friends to Jobs and anything else you can think of. No matter how much i cast away more always come my way.
The New Rising Sun
Another opportunity in the form of a Job came my way. I am now doing 3D modeling and design for Money. I work whenever i want and i am my own boss. I was not happy with my pevious possible Job, the pay, and my possible boss and i cast it away like a piece of rotting flesh. Now God and his angels and even some spirits have given me something more to my liking.
Whats so cool about this job is that i don't need a car (Wich i don't have) i sell my work online. From what i read, some guys say that you can make a small fortune if your work is good and because people download a copy of your models, you can sell that model unlimited times. The average price for one descent model is between 50 and 500 USDollars. Thats alot of cash for a few days work. I am working Fervently to complete and post my first model, wich i am doing my best at to create the type of quality i would expect. My model is way more detailed and sophisticated that any other model of the same thing on that site and i'm sure it will sell as i am offering my best performance.
As you can tell i am extatic about this new opportunity that has been granted to me. And then i took some time out to think about everything so far. It 's so easy to make it on the material level even if you are a stubborn, hardheaded picky person like me. I have lost all animosity and jealousy of lacked success on this material plane because i now see that i can truely ask God for something specific and be picky about it, aslong as i believe and i truly desire and if it truely is good for me God grants it. I plan now to repay God by picking up where i left off three moths ago, and that is praying for divine love.
Yes its true i haven;t prayed to God for his love in more that 3 months an even so God did not leave me, my spirit brothers and sisters never left me nor did any of you.
SO I SAY THIS IN A LOUD VOICE
I DONT CARE ANYMORE I AM FREE FORM ALL DESIRE AND NOW I CAN DO MORE THINGS FOR MYSELF
AND I OWE IT ALL TO GOD WHOM TRULY BENT DOWN TO ME TO GRAB MY HAND AND SHOW ME HIS LOVE AND BLESSINGS ARE NOT CONDITIONAL.
I have done nothing to deserve this but in my own arrogance expected it and believed i am worthy of Choosing what i want the way i want and getting it. And even so God still showed me kindness
i am realy happy now and i know i am gonna be for a long time, yes the bad days will come, the tears, anger, shame and all that i have mentioned, but now i know there will always be light at the end of night and always something new after each failior
God bless you all and my love i extent to all Gods creation
Goodbye
Mysery, anger, fear, denial, regret, shame you name it i have been through it. And you know what i just don't care. I am not angry anymore, miserable or and of the above mentioned. I have little and i am even less, but how many people can live happily and a fufilled life like i do with what i have.
I am no longer bothered by thing people did wrong to me nor am i bothered by what people think of me. I am the only person who knows me and that is the only person i care to impress.
Opportunities come my way ALWAYS i almost feel like a spoilt brat. I don't like this, icast it aside, nevermind that how would you like this, mmmm i don't know, NO take it away! NOW!. This is how i have handled a\everything from forgiveness to making friends to Jobs and anything else you can think of. No matter how much i cast away more always come my way.
The New Rising Sun
Another opportunity in the form of a Job came my way. I am now doing 3D modeling and design for Money. I work whenever i want and i am my own boss. I was not happy with my pevious possible Job, the pay, and my possible boss and i cast it away like a piece of rotting flesh. Now God and his angels and even some spirits have given me something more to my liking.
Whats so cool about this job is that i don't need a car (Wich i don't have) i sell my work online. From what i read, some guys say that you can make a small fortune if your work is good and because people download a copy of your models, you can sell that model unlimited times. The average price for one descent model is between 50 and 500 USDollars. Thats alot of cash for a few days work. I am working Fervently to complete and post my first model, wich i am doing my best at to create the type of quality i would expect. My model is way more detailed and sophisticated that any other model of the same thing on that site and i'm sure it will sell as i am offering my best performance.
As you can tell i am extatic about this new opportunity that has been granted to me. And then i took some time out to think about everything so far. It 's so easy to make it on the material level even if you are a stubborn, hardheaded picky person like me. I have lost all animosity and jealousy of lacked success on this material plane because i now see that i can truely ask God for something specific and be picky about it, aslong as i believe and i truly desire and if it truely is good for me God grants it. I plan now to repay God by picking up where i left off three moths ago, and that is praying for divine love.
Yes its true i haven;t prayed to God for his love in more that 3 months an even so God did not leave me, my spirit brothers and sisters never left me nor did any of you.
SO I SAY THIS IN A LOUD VOICE
I DONT CARE ANYMORE I AM FREE FORM ALL DESIRE AND NOW I CAN DO MORE THINGS FOR MYSELF
AND I OWE IT ALL TO GOD WHOM TRULY BENT DOWN TO ME TO GRAB MY HAND AND SHOW ME HIS LOVE AND BLESSINGS ARE NOT CONDITIONAL.
I have done nothing to deserve this but in my own arrogance expected it and believed i am worthy of Choosing what i want the way i want and getting it. And even so God still showed me kindness
i am realy happy now and i know i am gonna be for a long time, yes the bad days will come, the tears, anger, shame and all that i have mentioned, but now i know there will always be light at the end of night and always something new after each failior
God bless you all and my love i extent to all Gods creation
Goodbye